Well I'm gonna get off my lazy ass and make Etsy and Paypal accounts. 

also I want to get off my lazy ass and make a website then promptly abandon dA for everything I can manage, keep my one account open for posting JUST trades, commissions, and work I'm especially proud of (Jabberwockyjones), and use Octopusrave for everything else or make a new account altogether, for watching artwork ONLY.

I think it will work well.
 

I am sick of dA's bullshit. the new shit with child pornography was the last straw.

Anyway, uh, so I'll do this if I make a site.  In which case I KNOW i'd need help because I can't do HTML or anything digital worth shit. D: 

I'm hoping to share it with at least ONE irl friend, if I can get enough memory. I have no clue how that works with a website, to be honest!

I can make CUTE GALLERY FOLDERS LIKE ON dA, DIFFERENT LINKS, AND OTHER AWESOME SHIT!  OHHHYES!

If I posted any of my not-sold art, would anyone be interested?
or is that more of an Etsy thing?

I'll try it there.  

<333

Also, uh, after Sarcophagii posted her SUPERSEXXXII altered book, now I wanna do one.
And I get to do still lifes for my portfolio stuff soon, whoopee!....
And work is boring as hell, creepy mosquitos keep coming in and trying to bite me ;-; 

But I live. I'd live better with headphones. In order to keep myself from eating candy and drinking water out of boredom so that I don't end up in the hospital addicted to water and with type 2 diabetes, I'm gonna ask about headphones. I'm only typing file names, which are right in front of me/on my lap in a box. 
so hope the answer is yes....

Gotta go work on commissions...

Oh and Angel I superlove you and Natty I still wanna commission you for tattoo art someday, mah fine lady.  
And Haydencakes is totally awesome.  

Uh, yeah.
All my friends are but I tend to spend most of my LJ time on their journals, and therefore come away thinking about them a ton.  <333

 Badge commission from AC for Sonsephira.
I finished the sketch on the way back from the convention...but because of work, I didn't post until today.

I also drew Bailey passed out on his art and drooling on it.  Or maybe he barfed. I dunno. 
it's a gross image but I really like it. I think this is where he was before he sobered, or maybe if he were single and didn't have Amy's good influence to keep his habits, insecurities, and bad relationship with his parents from getting to him?...

Oh and Domni and boyfraaand, Matt.
Dominic is SO fun to draw as a weird doodle eating fried noodlies.  He loves unhealthy chinese food more than anything.  ANYTHING.  
yayyyy

I may be online less because I have a part time job at my dad's work doing extensive filing and stuff.  I actually am probably gonna end up doing a mix of full and half days. But still.  it restricts my...everything-time.  But, I've been taking tiny one-minute or two-minute breaks between sorting files and lifting HUGE heavy boxes of files by drawing things like tape dispensers for practice's sake.  Each doodle takes me like...5 or 10 seconds.  I hope it helps to improve me as well as break up monotony.  

Tell me if you want anything changed, mister :3  This character is funnn. He is a grey cheshire tabby cat.  I hope I got the lettering right too! 

 okay, half-ass conquer.

But I TRIED

I wish I had more time to spend with people. I wish I found Silverwing before I had to leave, and had time to finish my trade with Ghost, and had time to draw with Lenore.

OH AND LENORE AND GHOST ARE SO BEAUTIFUL IRL.  SRSLY.

;-; you guys are adorable.

 

Oh and John is such a sweetheart.  

OHGOD but now it's over

Oh well

Off to draw. I got me two commissions today I gotta work on. :)

And tomorrow my first day of work. 

I think the next time I go to Ac...I'll actually be aiming to go w/out folks and room with pals.  

 IT NEVER FAILS

I am always in a good mood, think of something I wanna tell someone (i.e. Hannah) and she's not there STILL

Because she wasn't earlier.

It's so frustrating.

Doesn't help that today it involves Kiera.  Who never calls me.  It depresses me. -_- How am I gonna take a huge trip with my friend from 2nd grade WHO DOESN'T CALL ME, WTF

anyway, moving on from my narcissistic rantings.  Sorry. D:

It's just...that always pops the happy bubble.  ALWAYS

but yeah.  Movingon.

BLUTTEE IS OKAY.  OH GOD, NATTY, I WAS SO FUCKING WORRIED FOR YOU AND YOU ARE OKIEDOKIES!!!!!!

YES
YES
YESSSSS!  YES!  YES!  <3333
SO HAPPY.  I'll post the art I made you. It's not much, but it's something, right? <333

Also, I'm doing some health stuff I haven't given much thought to in some time (like, major thought, I mean).  Feels good.

( Under this is health ramblings on KOMBUSHA BABIES and FOOT SHIT and other stuff. )

 

 It died.
Came back after a few days. 
I had no way to get on to say "GUYS MY INTERNET IS DOWN" so I'm sorry for that!  I missed y'all but not having net access FORCED me to get some semi-artish stuff done for AC (cutting up old boxes to use as something to keep art from bending...so fun with dull scissors).

I hope everyone's doing okay btw. :o
*hugs all around*

OH PLUS I'M SEEING TOOL IN CINCIIII WITH MY SISTER IN AUGUST.
win. 

Some folks said they need moar time, so for now I'm putting it up so stuff is due the first of June. Kay? :3 Kay. <3 you guys.

 I want to help so badly.

I also want to draw for you.  I feel like it's all I can do for you right now...Angel, I wanna make you feel better. -_-
I want to help.  Do something of substance...be able to go to where you are and wrap you up in a hug and just...help somehow.



Oh, and



I just wanted to let you guys know...

Angel, Rae, Rebecca, Natalie, Kaili, Lenore, Rachel, Hayden.

I love all of you to pieces.
Kay?
<333

The school year is still, well, crowded.
I haven't been on enough and I feel horrible that I have to go onto some machine to talk to the people I care about.
I can't see you all and hug you collectively.  
-_-

DAMMIT
but that's why airplanes were invented, I take it.
If I could see you all at once, it would be...


the best party.




ever.

 Okay. I know what it is, lol. But I wanna know people's opinions of it. this is a bit of a survey for an essay I'm doing. I wanna know a few things: 1. Your thoughts on anthropomorphism 2. Your thoughts on the fandom/art form 3. Why you like it (personal reasons and any opinions about whether or not there is a natural inclination) 4. What examples, not in the art community, do you associate with anthropomorphism/what inspires you? Ex. Brian Jaques, Watership Down, a certain cartoon, silly commercials. Anything inspiring or something out of the fandom that makes you think of the art. Your net names won't be included, lol. Just, "forum post" or something. I am still figuring that bit out, lol. Thanks for your opinions! Lol. For a huuuge number of opinions, I'm cross-posting to my other posting areas. I want a lot to take from and think about and one reason why I picked the topic I picked was because I wanted to see if I couldn't get some "first-hand" sources from others as into all this craziness as I am. It's mainly about anthropomorphism as a tool in general but it doesn't mean I can't be excited about it. Gawd. Way too excited about this paper. I get to cite a lotta books I like. A LOTTA books. <333 Oh and beyond that I'm gonna be absent except for art posts. Like I have for the past few weeks. DX We're only a few days from the exam that two whole years of my school life has circulated around. Ohhh man. It's next Thursday and, to say the least, I'm VERY concerned. I think I'll pass, sure, but I wanna pass well and the last thing I want (even more than a barely-passing grade) is to panic in the middle. So I'm gonna be doing a LOT of studying. And arting a little here and there. I can barely focus on anything but art or history class right now anyway. :/ Yup, just thought I'd add that too. But thanks guys, for your opinions. You're the best. <3
...

I'm SUCH a history geek. It's become my "specialty" of sorts and I nearly cried when I learned tomorrow's going to be our last lecture of International Studies before the exam.  After the exam it's all preparation for the regents.  Which will be SO easy.  We do practice questions from regents tests online in preparation for tests in class and it's...SO easy.  Basic knowledge test, lol.
But seriously, I've learned so much this year about how the world works and why it is the way it is today.
America's lost a lot of respect in my eyes in some ways but gained a lot in others. I feel anger when I think about how so many peoples we fight against today used to practically rule the world.  It's just insane that the power's America's now when it used to be in the Middle East and China.  And now they're poor and hate our guts. :/  
But also it's been a lot of fun.  Our teacher makes pretty good jokes and his ability to always remain unbiased...I really respect that.
Besides my griping and soon-to-be-nostalgia...moving on!  

Hopefully AP American'll be fun too, but seriously, I much prefer learning about the rest of the world. XD

And hopefully when this craziness is through I'll post more.  D: I don't want anyone to think I'm abandoning the internet...rather, I wish I could bypass all machines: phones, computers, everything...just to chill with you guys.

Oh, apparently my phone can't hold a charge.  Neither can my iPod.  Or my mother's cell.  So they're gonna be taken in.  
Um. People I exchanged numbers with--what phone company do you use? I'm Verizon...so I may be able to call people free? :3 Hopefully?
Anyway.  Whatever.  This is about the essay.  Silly me. 

I will still have access to internet, I'll just be in a car for an ungodly number of hours too. Around 6 or 7?...

So yeah, I can still manage the exchange and check messages.  :3

I'll take photos, okies? I'll take photos of all the pretty horses that I absolutely refuse to ride.

Last time I rode a horse it was my sister's somewhat pregnant mare who is really calm and inquisitive compared to most horses-she tries to <i>eat</i> plastic bags, the bane of horsekind-and this is because she lacks hormones to GET pregnant so they gave her estrogen to get her pregnant so she was HORNY.

And while I rode her she kept trying to hump my sister's older mare Lanaha.  It was so scary ;-; NEVER AGAIN NEVER AGAIN!

I'm really afraid of riding and then the animal tries to nudge up against the other. DX she never got into humping position at least. Oh god.

But yeah, no more riding horses for me.  I'm not too keen on the feeling of them moving under me. Plus they're absolutely HUGE animals.  Makes me a little nervous.

But yeah, I'll get photos.  :3 

EDIT: Rachel's journal with the link to the NOM video made me SO SICK that I sent a letter to them.

Then I found articles on the persecution in Iran.
I want to go kill someone plz.

Oh, and Badgeaholics needs ONE MORE participant.  We're one short. 

Exchange Participants:
1. Darkydespised-Refs- http://jabberwockyjones.deviantart.com/art/lindsay-powers-ref-1-0-77512272 http://jabberwockyjones.deviantart.com/art/Bailey-Reference-V-2-0-95288530 http://jabberwockyjones.deviantart.com/art/Oh-Lordy-85771903 for Felix (Male Darkmoon), please note he has only one tail, but he has Bailey's tattoos.  He has a giant fuzzy death'hawk that can be any color including brown, and he has the same bangs and front black bits that Darkmoon has.  http://jabberwockyjones.deviantart.com/art/Darkmoon-Reference-2-1-102515284
Prefs-Mild gore as long as the nose isn't included, and mild nudity is okayyy
Theme prefs-Foster's Home, Chowder, Flapjack, Popples, The Last Unicorn, Okami, Care Bears (original, for god's sakes original!) My Little Pony (as in the show vs. the toys), Rainbow Brite, Paprika, Tokyo Godfathers, My Neighbor Totoro, The Aristocats, Fantastic Planet, Paradise Kiss (manga over anime), Futurama, Ren and Stimpy, The Matrix if we're going into dressup (although a lot of the other ones could include dressing up one of my characters, so really, do what you want).
2. Hipthrust-refs-
3. Demolitionbride-Character: Ande4. Clockworkgh0st
5. Retrorodent-
6. Tombstonerider-
7. Horsefeathers
8. Mottenfest
9. Zteif
10. Rosetintdshades-Ref- http://sara-ford.deviantart.com/art/Sasha-Fursona-Ref-83929759
I don't really need above PG-13, I like clothes and cussing.
Suggested Comics/Games/Animated Shows:
Dynasty Warriors (Anyone From Wu)
Shadow of Destiny (as Eike Kusch)
COMIC The Darkness (Jackie Esticado/The Darkness)
Any male character from a CLAMP Manga
Tim Burton-esque
Digimon (As a Digimon, not a kid)
11. Milinkowolf-refs-http://milinkowolf.deviantart.com/art/kyo-id-49112089
http://milinkowolf.deviantart.com/art/Smokin-fingers-71211920
http://milinkowolf.deviantart.com/art/We-have-to-take-our-57729748 
Preferences: Mild nudity or gore is okay. 
 theme-anything from Final Fantasy, moogles.  
12. Wingsofjudas-

I gotta go now but I will fill in the rest of the preferences everyone already gave me later, okay?  Expect them later today, possibly in the evening.  

Guys, remember, we don't really accept anything above tasteful nudity, we aren't a pr0nzbadge community, lol. 
Aaand for gore, uh, whatever you guys want, I guess, just put a warning for gore when posting.  Some people (like me, eek) have issues with stuff like noses bleeding, etc. sometimes.  

Anyone else wanna participate? 

Okay, The deadline is looking to be the middle of May...If anyone needs more time (Like I know Judas is moving, but he can get the badge sketched and inked) let me know, but I'd prefer to not extend it too far.

The theme again is a bit of a mix: cosplay of characters from comics and animated works is optional, and emulation of a style of said comic or animated work is the core theme.  If you want you can bypass adding bits of another style and just do the character cosplay/adaptation to the comic.  :3
I hope that made sense!

So, last chance for signups!  And if I don't have your refs and preferences (ohmigod, refs and prefs) then please get them to me sooooon, kay?
Thanks, everyone, looks like it'll be tons of fun! 

I'd....I'd look up the stuff at Roswell, etc....Find out all the crazy alien stuff.

 

I'm serious.

I would.  
I wonder that a lot-how much is true, what did they find that they refuse to share?  
I'm just fascinated.  

oh and...

 HI GUYS

In case you have not seen already, Badgeaholics is starting an EXCHANGEEXCHANGEEXCHANGEEXCHANGE <3333

ISN'T THAT AWESOME.

The theme is comic, videogame, or other art/animation style.  So someone would sign up with a few requests.

For example this is MY signup:

Characters: Darkmoon, male OR female, Bailey, Lindsay.
Theme preferences: (you can deviate a little here if you want--my list does this, lol...) The Matrix (lol, theme deviation), original My Little Pony/Carebears, Rainbow Brite, Popples (I can't hide it anymore-I LOVED these things when I was little, even though they kind of scare me despite my love), Okami, 

I've been neglecting the internet because of school work, a birthday party, and being generally sleepy.  I'm not sick though.

I wanna call Rae soon.  And Lenore.  I gotta make time for that.

And most of my spare time for the last few days I've really not gone online or if I have it hasn't been here, dA, or FA...

And uh, yeah, part of it IS because of The Matrix. :P

I'll have cleared away the trilogy by tonight.  A-HAH!

I know some people HATE the other movies but I think (except for a few scenes that were just not needed and cluttery) the second one WAS good, the storyline wasn't corrupted...it was just that Our Geeky Saviour had figured out his goal, so he was less OHMIGOD, HELP MEEEEEE
from everyone else and it gave the story a different feel to see Neo actually like.  able to do something.

But seriously-he's such a friggin' GEEK.  

Oh and my favorite character is Agent Smith.  My science teacher I had last year looks like one of the other Agent Smiths with reddish hair.  It's really funny.  
Plus he talks in a voice that they tone themselves to for the part, and he like.  Frowns like they do.  
So yeah.  XD

Um.  Um.

I'm gonna try to be online more...I made a  megalist of people who matter like a TON to me or are closeish friends, so my best and awesome internet friends, and a few people I wanna get to know better, and I'm gonna do a GIANT image.

Lol.  All my LJ pals are on it pretty much. XD

I love you guys. I think I had a dream recently with Rae in it.  Wtf?...
She was just kinda there though.  It was so weird.  

Oh also I'm looking at animation programs.  :/ they're too tricky to figure out even just buying them.  Wtf, not fair!

YES, UM, TELL ME INTERESTING THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO YOU
because I may not read all the journals I've missed. :/ 
Yup.  Fill me in.  I love you guys but getting caught up takes time I may not have considering the amount of school work has increased a lot from my most time-costly classes. 
HOWEVER it all requires me to be online so I could chat with people at the same time.

In fact, my AIM username is darkydespised@yahoo.com.  Full thing.  the at symbol and everything.
So yeah, uh, you can talk to me then.
In the middle of the day I am generally at school (oh lol) and sometimes in the afternoon the internet won't work on weekends. :/ just a heads-up.

Buh-bye :3

The lights turned on and the curtain fell down, 
And when it was over it felt like a dream, 
They stood at the stage door and begged for a scream, 
The agents had paid for the black limousine 
That waited outside in the rain. 

Did you see them, did you see them? 
Did you see them in the river? 
They were there to wave to you. 
Could you tell that the empty quivered, 
Brown skinned Indian on the banks 
That were crowded and narrow, 
Held a broken arrow? 

Eighteen years of American dream, 
He saw that his brother had sworn on the wall. 
He hung up his eyelids and ran down the hall, 
His mother had told him a trip was a fall, 
And don't mention babies at all. 

Did you see him, did you see him? 
Did you see him in the river? 
He was there to wave to you. 
Could you tell that the empty quivered, 
Brown skinned Indian on the banks 
That were crowded and narrow, 
Held a broken arrow? 

The streets were lined for the wedding parade, 
The Queen wore the white gloves, the county of song, 
The black covered caisson her horses had drawn 
Protected her King from the sun rays of dawn. 
They married for peace and were gone. 

Did you see them, did you see them? 
Did you see them in the river? 
They were there to wave to you. 
Could you tell that the empty quivered, 
Brown skinned Indian on the banks 
That were crowded and narrow, 
Held a broken arrow? 

This has been one of my favorite songs and for a very long time when I was younger, it WAS my favorite song PERIOD.
I grew up on older music.  Yeah...Like Buffalo Springfield.
For What It's Worth = total win.
I doubt it'll ever change.

I had to share it...all of a sudden...

Writing stuff for English.  Uh, yeah.  I'm pretty much over being sick.  Yup.
Field trip tomorrow I think.  Wheeeeee

I checked out a few books and movies-a book of urban legends (I love indulging in stuff like this, lol), a book of embellishment inspiration from older Western illuminated lettering books.  AWESOME, HUH?
I love illuminated letters.

So I am very excited to flip through and do some art...

I want to do more involved backgrounds, more....full, detailed.  Like when people draw a room and it looks good.  Like when people draw plants and butterflies.
I want to do this so badly.  
I'm getting better, I think.
Oh and the movies were Camelot the musical and The Matrix (I've never seen it all the way through).
I love musicals. 

Yeah.  So.  Off to do that. 

 Calamarikeo
Twinklestahblog
Retrorodent

SAY HI TO EVERYONE. <333

Uh, if anyone still isn't able to post, check with our mods about that.
I'm rather new to communities. 
*Me, Darkydespised
*Demolitionbride
*Powudnitsa
(psst-I gave you two modding opportunities.  exciiiting :o so I dunno if you forgot or not, but, yeah. :3)

 

Mh, so feel free to make an intro post and whatnot. :3
<333

 JUST 
saw
Coraline.

I loved it.  A little too much.  All I can say coming out of there was that the feeling of how everything flowed was very lifelike, and I enjoyed it.  The realistic dialogue and the little side things that make everything that much more enjoyable like a real day.
Especially this part where she opens up the fridge and there's barely any food but in like. a realistic way.  The gross stuff her dad makes is believable too, with the random stuff thrown into a casserole.
And the gloves.  Idk. I loved the gloves for some reason. XD

Besides, I'm a huuuge sucker for claymation, given it's not James and the Giant Peach.
I had an AWFUL experience as a kid with an earwig crawling out of a peach I finished and proceeding to grab at and try to hurt everything in sight.  THAT THING WAS EVIL.

Thank you everyone for being all nice and whatnot.  You're all so sweet ;_;

<333

I dun wanna be older....*flail*
Lol.  I was like,  to my mom..."I'm supposed to do something special for turning 16, riiight?  Idk what to dooooo DX"
and she's like. 
BOWLING.  OMFG, BOWL.

and i'm like. 

lolwhut, okay O_o

I like bowling but it's such a funny idea.  It sounds fun though.  yum. the local bowling place is all dark and smelly and <333 I LOVE IT THERE

I am usually grossed out by dark and smelly but it's the good, homey kind.

Lol.  

Most hardcore b-day party EVER, GUYS.

I actually will prolly do something else though.  GO ME. XP I wanna just.  hang out here.  my mom thinks it's lame and/or inappropriate for a 16th birthday partay but I dun care. XD BOWLING IS TOO KIND OF 

I'm working on more arts, whoo.  XD I'll hopefully have something to share soon.  Oh and I got the sims 2 working at last so I DID make 5Sleep, or rather, my interpretation of them. IT'S KIND OF SCARRING. I stuffed them all in Maxis suits. Idk why. ONE OF THE SUITS IS LIKE, A PIMP SUIT OR SOMETHING.  IT'S LEOPARD PRINT AND PINK.

amaaaaaazing.

Like coraliiine.  I loved the rats.  they looked like Bailey's rat, Mr. Schnuffles, so I was sad when they "died."  

I enjoyed the walking through the empty part of the world part.  It was fun 'cause I loved that part of the book.  

It's ben a DOG'S AGE SINCE I READ THE BOOK. I gotta revisit. I remember the mother liked games, the cat said names were pointless (which goes against Cats, which my mom loves and discussed in the carrrrr) and the empty part of the world and like.  an old guy who had a rat that sat on his lap all day or sumfin like that.

I want food.  Daaayumn I want food.  I gotta feed some ratty babies too.  *scurries off*

(ps. if you want to make me laugh pretty damn hard, make jokes about crappy and/or good horror.  i love that shit, maaan--I couldn't stop thinking of Wes Craven and people under the stairs what with the dolls.   and the well, well.  I was giggling there too. but yeah.  people under the stairs. LAMEST MOVIE EVER, IT'S SO FRIGGIN' HILARIOUS)

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I will work on PONIES for very special fwends today.  they'll be ATROCIOUS because I've never done customs before.  I still haven't fully removed the hair. DX the top stuff between the ears WILL NOT COME OUT and it's really short too.
I tried boiling the heads and it WON'T WORK
so for now I'm going to work on removing the designs.  It should be interesting, one of my practice ponies is strawberry scented. XD

Yeah, so they'll be gifts. I've never worked on ponies before and I got actual MLPs on sale somewhere to do it.

I gotta order some blank ones if this works. ;)

Yeah, and I'm working on a series with Bailey, a badge for Lucy again-feral form this time, a picture for a trade with Angelique, a trade with twinklestahblog-one image to go, WHOO! it's sketched, a rat scrapbook sheet (I made 3, two are on dA), a bull shark, a character named David (no relation to my brother except for the affinity for working with wood), a golden-tailed woodpecker, a gerynuk (totally butchered that spelling...), and a polecat that had its eyes bastardized when I attempted the inking process. BOOOOO.
lotta stuff. <3

 Honestly, it was me being ridiculous even though Hannah tried to get me to admit I've done nothing wrong and have every right to be upset with her.

Damn, we'd never NOT be friends.  <333
I know her/she knows me better than anyone.  She's so interesting and original in her point of view.  She can almost come across as silly.
Her icon on dA is just so fun.  It says "this is 50x50 pixels" in tiny text even though it's not pretty, looking at it is fun when you know that's what it says.
Oh, and I messed with her signature. XD It used to be some fun quote but I said something and she was like.  YES.  

Idk why I'm putting that here.  

I had almost fully gotten over her when I had that dream.  It just made me vulnerable again, and I tried to actually face it instead of feeling shitty and blaming her for all kinds of shit.  I can be really unnecessarily mean when I'm upset about something...I hate it DX I was kind of curious too I guess. 

Idk.  

But yeah, and talking to her mom made it a little better.  Still not telling my mom.

So I'm better.

And onto other things.  Such as games not working.  Errgh...

Lol.  I had a weird urge to make 5Sleep on the Sims 2 and like.  Get screenshots and post them for Rae. XD
I feel INSPIRED by that wondrous silly doodle of wonderment.
I love Laurel.  Saying wonderment is pretty sexy. XD

BUT NOOOO.
THE GAME WAS SUUUCH AN ASSHOLE TO ME TODAY THAT I CALLED ASPYR AND COMPLAINED.  I DECIDED IT COMES OF HAVING A FUCKIN' MAC.  I LOVE THEM BUT THEY HATE ENTERTAINMENT.
A lot.

So I kind of got over it after being all ranty and whatnot.  Now I'm just annoyed and tired. I sent them some email thingy...

My birthday's on the 19th.  FUNFUNFUN, GO ME!  IMMA BE 16.
hoshit, I'm such a young 'un.

Oh, Hannah's mom and I wanna plan a RHPS night soon and just.  watch it togehter OR go to the place here that shows it often.  FUNNNN.

I swear, I should have been born in their family. I am so comfortable with them.
I just heard a ratty swallow or something in my ear.  HOW CUTE.
I think it was a nibble sound actually.
I love my babies.  all cuddly n whatnooot.
I may get another soon.  I SO HOPE I DO GUIZE. 

for anyone interested here's my big fuckin' problem with the game.
I have had the game working fine before, with and without downloads and self-made neighborhoods and sims. I was running the Sims 2 Pets with some custom content in, and the game suddenly quit after several days of installation of the pets expansion pack and several weeks of installation with the original game.
I turned off the computer and had a little trouble restarting, but everything ran smoothly upon restarting except the Sims 2. I tried to install the University expansion pack before I was quite sure if the game would work but I ended up backing up all files and uninstalling all the games and reinstalling all the games, testing along the way.
The game will show up on the control bar and bounce as if it means to load, then it will disappear without a window popping up. I cannot tell what is causing the problem and I have installed the necessary patches from this website for the expansion packs I have.
I have installed nothing else that could have a conflict with the game-the Sims 2 folder that normally contains downloads and such is empty. When I reinstalled the base game, those files did not appear in the EA Games folder, either-the ones labeled Neighborhoods, Movies, Music, etc. 
Thank you for your help.

===[ Customer Information ]===
1. Name: Anna
2. Country: United States
3. Computer: iMac G5
4. CPU: Intel Core Duo 2.0 GHz
5. Operating System: Mac OS 10.4.11
6. RAM: 1.5 GB
7. Video Card: NVIDIA Geforce FX5200

TAKEN FROM THE COMPLAINT FORM ITSELF.

*Faceplants on desk*
It would appear every time I see the relatives with the REALLY loud house and the REALLY bad carpet (it's the cheapest they could get away with, won't hold up very well, AND sheds particles--oh, really smart when your kids' got asthma...) I HAVE A FRIGGIN' COLD.

Yeah, so we're going there today. I hate feeling so antisocial and rude when I'm there. I hide away in the guest room and nurse water for my bad headaches I get. I think it's a mix of the noise and the goddamn CARPET THAT IS NOT ASTHMA-FRIENDLY *hyperventilates*

Oh and Rae-the stuff is called Mucastop, the stuff my friend's mom gave to the rat-it's some kind of enzyme that has to be eaten with not very much food. It could be mixed with a more wet treat--I think they gave it to them in like, mushy spinach or blueberry or something.
HOWEVER
the poor guy still had to go back on the meds anyway. But it helped a little bit.

And it works great on hyuumans. You just can't take it with food or else it will eat your food instead of your snot.

I NEED SOME AND THEY KEEP SAYING THEY WILL SEND ME SOME TO TRY. UGH, I NEED SOME

As of Wednesday I've had a shitty headache with MAJOR sinus draining, a sore throat and occasionally I cough stuff up...and a WICKED sneeze attack syndrome.

Lol. SAS. Math classssssssss.....

I'm drinking water and all that jazz, I just think it'll run its course. Thank god I got an excuse for swimming in school. Worst idea ever. Especially in WINTER. Geez, they could have us just...do another, longer exercise unit or something but NOOOO. SWIMMING.
And like half the class of course CAN'T so then they exercise ANYWAY.

All rants aside, I'm not looking for advice this time, lol...I just dont' wanna see my loud relatives with the bad carpeting and FREEZING house. Their house is INCREDIBLY cold. I think they keep the heat off upstairs. In the winter. Idk why. :/

Buuut yeah, so I gotta go pack...and hope I won't come off as antisocial as per usual...

But before that I wanna post a few sketches...( Read more... )

sometimes I go to add people to the community and they're already added SOOOO, just, uh.
Lemme know if you can't post in my journal, darkydespised.

Arty stuff first....
Badgeaholics.
It's my new badge community :3
And if anyone still wants to join Greenfolio they can have an extension on their WIP due dates, lol yes.
It's another community on here I started (on dA first though).

And
That craft meme...five posts, I can make you anything, etc etc.
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5.

Will mostly be flat paper-pen-whatever art, prolly not gift art persay. May be little sketches. May be art of my rats.
Maybe watercolors, paper cuttings in a shape, something with cheap beads I got from pals in little sea shapes. <3

I'm trying to draw anthropomorphic animals I haven't heard of before, or have like, never seen drawn, or heard of like, once.
My reference? Pretty much just my giant illustrated encyclopedia. It's MASSIVE and has like, three, four, etc entries per page...breif basic info, you know....it's got insects in it too, I think.
Not sure.
And fish! <3333
So far I have a crocodile of some sort...she's inked...in a cute pose I've always wanted to draw :3 Her legs look hilarious-rather like mine, disgustingly hairy (no really, it gets longer all the time and I NEED to cut it because it's annoying, but I hate the feeling of shaved legs, even though I like the look) because of the scales on the leg...they like, lift off more if that makes sense.
She's got a ponytail. It's interesting.
I also have a Chinese Ferret Badger. I never heard of it before but it was mighty cute.

I'm trying a design for Brandy out on her. I want to give Brandy some new tattoos that mimic her MLP design on either side of her hip, but I'm unsure so I'm trying it on this cutie first. That nose. IS SO PRECIOUS ;_;
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I want a mohawk. Veeeeery badly. A glorious, shaved-sides-of-my-head-ratted-up PROPER mohawk.
A death 'hawk, no less.
But with my bangs.

I been wondering this a lot lately.
How can people be happy if they don't persue what they want to be?
Who they want to look like?

I try to do this and get made fun of for looking like a disgusting "omagee emorainbowgofffbarfpile".
How can people...not persue something like that?

Something so incredibly beautiful?

It's beyond me.
To me, although superficial, maybe...being happy with one's appearance, regardless of body type...being able to set yourself aside and feel like you belong to something interesting, that you are something otherworldly when you set out for the day...
It's vital.

I feel more comfortable even just -looking- at people that look strange, dress strangely...the ones that really love it, don't just do it to be cool, but -really- are -drawn to it- no matter what they do or how they try to deny it...
It's so human. So natural. So basic.
To do anything else, to ever follow a trend because it's a trend, to ever not think but just do, say, wear, is a crime...against self expression, against self...who does this? What kind of people
But I see it so much.

someday, I'll get a mohawk so damn big it'll be ridiculous.
And it'll be ratted up.

<333
Not today. I'm too nervous about school still...and I still like my current cut too much. XD
I'm still learning to act on what I want to be.
This year, short so far...it's been such a big step forward, what I've decided.
Overall my new year's resolution is actually to floss at least once a week or something. I don't floss ever.
But artistically I've just...decided to do away with not being spontaneous, not living for the art moment.
Getting my hair cut and dyed last year was so big for me.
But I'm more certain about this than many other things...
As soon as I get the cash and I'm able to get one without parental consent, I'm going to get my nosebridge pierced. I find them so beautiful.
Someday I'll prolly have a tattoo too...I don't believe in getting them for looking cool.
I believe in...it's hard to describe, but it's this...feeling.

Also, I wanna stretch a little but I'm afraid to ask my folks. -_- Someday, ergh.

I'm sick of saying someday. I'm trying to train myself to not use the lazy excuse and do things. Actually DO things, instead of just sitting and talking.

I'M GONNA GO DO, PEOPLE, I'M GONNA GO FINISH THAT DAMN CROCODILE!

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Later I'll talk about math discoveries. It's really interesting.
And I'm gonna plant to work on a shirt soon. My mom is making a skirt for me, hooray! I wish I could find the enthusiasm to actually make stuff that she has. She has actually begged me to please come up with something for her to make because she wants to learn to make clothes. I do too, but I don't. know where to start...
it goes into the math thing, but it's...it's so spacially oriented. I kind of fail there...
In any case I want to learn to edit before I learn to create from nothing. So.
I have two shirts I wanna butcher...*plotplot* FUNFUNFUN!
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MATH DISCOVERY TIME

I apparently have a ton of problems in the right side of my brain.
EXCEPT
Art, and my skills with diagrams. :/
So I'm like. Svant in those areas. But I suck ass everywhere else
(this is the core reason why I do badly in gym)
So, Geometry is not only math, which is my bad subject, but it's...a spacially-oriented subject.
I have spacial difficulties.
Plus my teacher's notes SUCK ASS.
they look like this.
Theorem 1: All quaderlaterals have such-and-such a feature.
Example 1: (insert finished equation here)
(Insert doodles)
Yeah, there we are.
He can't connect the rule with the process, and I need to have my hand held, pretty much, if I want to pass the class because of my learning disabilities. This is the only academic course where they are more evident
(that and I have trouble with random memory--not rote but like, if you gave me a pile of equations, they'd all sound the same. X's, A's, little squared signs, radicals, y's, all crowded together).
So I'm gonna get a tutor. Funnnn.
But, I'll pass.
I am passing with an okay grade because the teacher checks our homework on completion only and I never come without it done, but it's usually half-assed because I couldn't use the notes as a guide.
Go figure.

But, men are more oriented with the right side of the brain...they're all sports and math and shit.
Women are more left side, all lingual and whatnot...
However, a lot of math-sports people (actually, men) can't draw worth shit.
I think there are more woman artists in the world than man artists.
Which is silly because in history only men could persue art, for like, ever.
IMAGINE HOW FAT OUR HISTORY TEXTBOOKS'D BE WITH WOMAN ART, EH, EH?
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Quiz.
List seventeen random things about yourself, then tag seventeen people to do the same. I was tagged by nightehfaice , and...well shit, I don't have seventeen people! Uh, Clockworkgh0st, Retrorodent, Sarcophagii, Bluttee was already tagged...Powudnitsa, X_thor, Demolitionbride, Angryprncess. Hm. Who else...Who else...No one that comments regularly, really. Ohwells.
Don't feel obligated, you guys.

1. I don't drink enough water. ;_; I wake up superdehydrated. But yet I have to pee all the time. What's up with that.
Sorry for the graphics.

2. I find transgender people fascinating. On Halloween I really wanted to stand on the second floor under the door and hit every man in drag on the head with something heavy to knock them out, hide them in my closet, and sort them until I find the tranny. Then keep him.

3. I agree with Nightehfaice, needles scare the hell out of me. But I'm not afraid to get my nosebridge done. I used to be but..I CONQUERED THE FEAR!

4. I ate a hamburger with cooked onions on it last night. COOKED ONIONS ARE THE WIN.

5. I had a dream about a marbled floor (wood pattern though) and my dad hated it and wanted to make it ugly.
The dream was that my floor was so gross, but I cleaned it and underneath was a neat swirly white pattern on the wood. :3

6. I don't like many parts of the furry fandom. Picking and choosing is hard, but dammit, I do see myself as a furry. But in a nonsexual way. that is, nothing more than "mmmh, Bailey is hooooot" but we're allowed to want to raaaeeeeeppppp our own characters, right? XD

7. I WANT MORE ICONS, DAMMIT. I WANNA MAKE THE BADGE X_THOR MADE ME INTO AN ICON BUT I RAN OUT OF ICONS.

8. I want another rat. But I'm not sure.
If I DID get another it'd be another girl and I'd name her either Bellatrix, Narcissa, Samara, Alice, Ayami (Lucy's daughter-to-be/Carlos's sister-to-be's name-she's still a fetus, d'awwrr), Mitsumi (could be Mitsy for short, like my character Lucy's older sister, her name is Mitsumi!), Caroline, Coraline (may be Crow for short--character concept I still may use), Charolette (but my mom hates that name...I dunno why either) or something else painfully french like Cecile or Marie. OR CARLOTTA, DAMMIT, IN HONOR OF CARLOS. Tibby for Bailey's oldest daughter... Or Bailey. But I'm saving that for when I get a Japanese bobtail and I'm an old lady.
I am dead serious when I say FUCK YOU RING, SAMARA IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE NAMES AND IT IS FOREVER ASSOCIATED WITH DAMN HORROR FILMS. FUCK IT, I WANT TO NAME MY RATTY THAT OR SO HELP ME!
The mosque with that name inspired the library in the Avatar, I KNOW IT! I KNOW IT!
But..they blew that building up. AS IN, WE BLEW IT UP BY ACCIDENT IN THE WAR IN IRAQ.
IT WAS A HISTORICAL MONUMENT OF A GREAT CITY.
I actually love the name because of this book when I was tiny (like, ten) about a man who was afraid of his meeting with Death in the local bazaar so he fled to Samara to escape Death, but Death found him there. :/ poor guy.
I love Japanese names TO DEATH. They're so E sound. A sound. So...clicky. Iike a keyboard. <3
Maybe I'll name one of my rats Paprika someday. :3
Coraline is just a kickass name. I love it. I loved that book and look out theatre, when that film comes, dammit I will SO be there!
I really love Harry Potter names. They're very clever. o.o I really liked those two woman characters too...
And I like French names. I'm in French class afterall. My French name for French class in 7th grade was Caroline.
My German name is Cornilia (I kid you not it was Inkheart nostalgia--Cornilia Funke was my GOD for a while there)...and it should be Anna, but it'd be pronounced correctly. :/ Like my dog's name, we just...fuck up German words in this family.
I have a rabbit character I want to use but I dont' know where. Her name is Croaline, Crow for short.
I have pet name plans. I want to get a Chinese Crested and name him Lindsay, for example, and I want a cat named Bailey someday...

Pets deserve people names, that's my opinion.
FUCK WHAT FANTASTIC PLANET SAID IN THE BEGINNING, PETS SHOULD TOTALLY GET PEOPLE NAMES.

9. I want a tattoo someday of Bailey's star. oOo I'm not afraid to get it done...I think ;_;

10. I WANT TO STRETCH MY EARS. GUYS, HELP ME BREAK THIS TO MY FOLKS--THEY THINK IT HAS TO BE HUGE AND SURGICAL ASSISTANCE IS NEEDED FOR RETURNING TO NORMAL

11. Sometime this year I want to get my ears pierced again, at least once.

12. Someday I WILL HAVE A MOHAWK
AND IT WILL LOOK LIKE THE PHOTOS AT THE BOTTOM, DAMMIT!
ONLY WITH MY CUTE LITTLE V-FRINGE BANGS!

13. I want to animate. But, I don't know who I want to be within that, because...I want to do hand animation, I want to work with -my- characters. I'd be a comic artist...but I fail at comics...I think storyboarding will help me learn...
But yeah, I will be happy designing them, but I want to do my own projects! I found a school that might have what I want--Villa Maria looks good...plus they won't give a shit if I fail at math. XD

14. I often add to my internet speak and go through phases of it. I don't say Eek! in person, for example, so I dunno where it came from. But it came...and will go, probably.
Prolly is like that too. It's more recent.

15. I am scared so bad by horror films, but I want to watch more. I am too...double sided on everything!

16. I have an obsession with Paprika, and I love the weirdest combos of fashion.
I think if I dressed how I want to it would make...very little sense, as it does now...only without as many pairs of jeans. Lol.
I do love Lolita dresses, but I hate that it's related to Loli art. That's just...nasty.
Plus, I'd prolly spill something on a white one, with my luck. Lol.

17. That girl I say I don't like so much anymore?
I lied to myself when I said that. I decided that if I stop being so weird in my toe-wiggling habits, etc...all the little things that annoy the hell out of her that I don't really think about doing, or if I do they're rather gross (random urges to chew my big toe, etc) and then maybe she'd accept me.
D'aww.
I think she's straight. >.>;;
I still have dreams about fucking her and I wake up like. Dammit! Lemme sleep s'more!
As creepy as that sounds. O_o because the dreams ARE creepy.
The worst ones are the ones where she loves me passionately and we go on a date and GO INTO A PHOTO BOOTH.
I WANT TO GO INTO A PHOTO BOOTH SO BAD BECAUSE IT'S SO CHEESY AND NOVEL! I HAVE WANTED TO SINCE I WAS VERY SMALL.
And I never have.

These are my bang colors..>I just have to redye and get them cut into a V again. My hair's too wavy for a true sharp V...but I can sweep it to the side in a cute mini emo fringe.
See?

I felt like Rainbow Brite that day--I took out my supershoes, lol, the creepers with the pink stars...I love platforms. And I had my rainbow socks on. And my rainbow belt.
So I felt like Rainbow Brite. It was fun. <3
Anyway, mohawks.

I LOVE chelseahawks. SO MUCH. Someday I'll have cute bangs n' side strands like now, only with a cute mohawk in the back. Yes.
Maybe it'll be blue like hers. I wish I weren't afraid of blue dye-I want to make my side strands blue, maybe, and the rest of my hair black.
But I'm ascared!
And I still like the black sides, brown back...

Sodamncute. Celery is useful, eh?
I love mohawks like this. All ratted up and GLORIOUS.
I want some with v-bangs, dammit.
I'll do leopard sides too sometime. THANK YOU, CELERY!

This is my favorite one from the site of mohawks, I think.
They're both so cute, Leopard...pink...blue...MOHAWK....d'aww.

I just posted this because the dress is so cute. BABY DOLL PARTS FTW.

For unknown reasons this makes me laugh. WITH THESE FRENCHFRIES, I WILL RULE THE WORLD!

Mkay, done.